!!! Липсваш ми много !!!

      So I have reached this new place and I would write about my experiences of this new place soon but for now I want to write about how much I miss her..The day I reached here, she too had came back home from her trip early this morning, but I reached at my place only in the afternoon. I was already late for the office and my mobile battery was completely drained. I went to my PG room that my friend had chosen and the first thing I did was to charge my mobile. In the meantime I got ready for the office in the next 10 minutes after a tiring journey of almost 20 hours on the last seat of the bus. I was awake till early morning while traveling, partly due to the seat allotment and moreover waiting for her to reach home safely and ping me about it. As soon as I got ready, my phone rang and my roomie gave me the phone and I saw her name on the screen. First ever call from someone close at this new place..and it was her. But to my apathy I was in a hurry, I answered the call and told her that am being late and I'll get back to you soon and don't worry I have reached here safely without even listening to what she had to say. She said OK and I hanged up the call. 

 Her exams were starting in the coming weekend and obviously it was not possible for us to have convos as long as always. But still we did as much as possible before bedtime, where I took report of how much learning she had completed and what next is to be done. It was for a very less period of time as compared to what we did when we were in the same city, afternoons...evenings after dinner and continuously going on till late night when I would reach home from office. I decided to reach out to her every morning wishing her a good day and would call her on the day of exam when she wakes up...when reaches the exam center and after the exam is over. But she was not happy with the idea pertaining to my night shift, she wanted me to sleep undisturbed...but stubborn as she calls me...I didn't agree much. So mutually we agreed the calling part on exam days and rest of the days she would give a miss call when she wakes up. She argued a lot on this and finally agreed. It went smooth for a while but then again something came to her mind and she stopped giving the miss call. So I decided to wake up and give it. She was very much angry on that part but I didn't want to argue with her and that too during her exams. So I finally gave up. 

  All this time I was trying to adjust with the new city, new office, my new home, food habits and all alone in it....and away from the only one I wanted to be with in my life. Its life and it can turn out in any way, giving you the biggest surprises and shocks. Recently I had both of them in a very short span of time. And at one instance I had both of them at the same time. I told her about what was happening around me in the convos we had, and 10 days later I couldn't control myself and told her how badly I missed her. She tried to be arrogant by saying, you should not miss me and concentrate on what you have gone for. How could I explain to her about my situation here....what I was going through....But I had to control myself...owing to her exam time. Next day with the morning message she replied with a lot of things...something like taking her step backward from what I had chosen her for..telling me she doesn't fit there anymore...and not left worth for that...I kept arguing on this...Somewhere with all things going on lately in my life and this convo made me think that she's gone...I tried to call her instead of continuing with message but she didn't pick up and hanged up on me...This created a more strong feeling....I tried continuously to reach her....22 times in a row...but she didn't pick up. When I saw her messages, she said she can't pick up due to her constraints but my mind was not ready to accept it. I tried calling again thinking she is lying because she didn't want to talk to me. And then she used the words which I never thought to do to her even in my dreams...Soon she went offline and switched off her phone...I kept on trying again and again continuously for another 30 minutes but no reply...When she came back online after sometime...I requested her to talk once and she agreed with a lot of anger. When I called her after sometime...she just erupted like a volcano on me...said the harshest words ever to me....but I had to control. I faked laughter on some of them and calmed her down...as I didn't want this to affect her results at all. I was the one who was supposed to be angry on what she had done but instead I chose the opposite because more then words or anger, I cared about our relationship.

  In all this I couldn't talk to her about how pathetic I was feeling after what she had told me in the convos and hearing the harshest words from her. But according to her I was guilty and so I decided not to eat or drink even water the entire day as a part of my punishment. I went offline...since I didn't want to disturb her anymore. I didn't came online for the entire day. When I came back home after the night shift, I saw her messages...asking for my well being...about how difficult it is to bear her and her anger and she would continue to message me even if I don't wanna. I explained to her what I did to myself as punishment and why I did that and wished her morning and went offline. She was not happy with what I did to myself...but we both didn't wanna things to go this way. It was a first big fight between us and glad we sorted it out as adults. We continued as mutually decided but I won't call her twice if she didn't pick up the call during her exam days or any other day as strictly instructed by her and somewhere now I was afraid as well going against her. Everything went smooth till her exams were over and I was hoping of a good convo for a long time. But I almost forgot about her plans to attend cousin's wedding and all the things she had to do before that...Also she told me how busy she is at work after the study leave's and the task she had in her bin. I was happy with what she was doing and even congratulated her about it. So obviously I had to take a step backward as she had many things already on board and adding me on it would do no good to her or me for the matter of fact. The amount of convos were lowered day by day and it was understandable. I was feeling low due to many things going on and now I didn't had anyone to talk about it too. Somehow she understood that one day and called me up to check on me and instantly there was a big smile on my face forgetting everything that was happening to me. I was glad she had called me. 

  Soon it was my birthday...I thought she wouldn't remember and I tried to be normal as well...and I avoided talking as she was very tired. She called up at 12.05 am, wished me and I tried to fake it but she was sure about it. That had made my day already. Next day she told me about when she is leaving and how many things are left and all. I could understand how busy she was and had to console myself and be glad with all the time she gave to me. Soon the day came when she was going....and we did our regular thing when one of us goes somewhere. I knew she would get more busy but still we had regular convo and the next day, she told me she would be gone for 2 days and would not be able to message me and would let me know when she is back...I knew what she was going for and I couldn't agree more to that. Besides she was very excited about the wedding and I wanted her to completely enjoy it and didn't want to bother her with me..2 days...3 days...the Wedding day...5 days...6 days...7 days...Still No message from her. I was not sure if she had her phone or not and didn't knew how should I reach her..I tried a trick with the messenger sms request which she saw in sometime and replied me as the good old days on social media app. She told me how busy she was these days and the network issues she was facing...I replied its Ok and ping me when you are back. She said in 2 days she will. Again the 2 days time after the 7 days wait were a lot harder to pass. But had to pass them anyways...On the 2nd day I felt like she would be traveling and I waited for her to inform me as always but she didn't ping me and I thought she is not coming today. But late night I felt like she is indeed coming back and I was up till the time she reaches home normally and kept checking on the train, but still she had not pinged me...but I knew she was back and would message me later.

  Same day before her bedtime, there was her ping and a big smile on my face. I asked her if she is back and she replied YES. I felt a bit angry because she had not informed me about it and she told that how does it matters and that finally she is here safe...Again we started with the normal talk as always but this time or now a days it is short enough compared to our normal time, like just the time before bed wishing Good Night to each other. I knew she was busy these days, tired after coming back from a wedding and then I came to know she was not well too all these days... I felt isolated that she didn't lemme knew about it...but her reason was not to make me anguish thinking about her. But knowing it now had made me more worried about her. She felt better in coming days, but she did something which again made her health low. I was again angry with her on this and she earlier denied to tell me the reason for it but eventually ended up telling me unlike other times. Yes she likes to share only what she is confident of telling, analyzing the consequences...otherwise holding back is an great quality of hers. I complained her about me being patient to talk to the normal her while she was busy these two months...and she said Good...you have to be more patient for some more days and replied I will...But I want you back asap.

P.S. First of all, I am dedicating this to our 6 months of friendship and togetherness...It was a great time of my life with all the ups and downs, sharing and discussing it all with you. I wish that this time would never end in our lives and we just grow old together and make our lives divine. Talking about the current situation we are facing....either you being Busy Bee or me being miles away...this time shall go away soon and we'll be together...Just in this course of time, we should not forget of how close we were...and what kinda relationship we share...and the original WE that had started six months ago.... I know its not possible to stay like that always but whenever we have sometime, we could behave as earlier times...forgetting about the world around us...talking for hours and not looking at the time passed and enjoying it to the fullest and the shmiles we had (yes the extra h's I missh in convos being used by you). With this I rest my pen for now hoping for your coordination as always. Bash!!! ;P

"Hum tere bin ab reh nahi sakte
Tere bina kya wajood mera 
Tujhse juda agar ho jaayenge
Toh khud se hi ho jaayenge judaa
Kyunki tum hi ho
Ab tum hi ho
Zindagi ab tum hi ho
Chain bhi, mera dard bhi
Meri aashiqui ab tum hi ho
Tera mera rishta hai kaisa
Ik pal door gawara nahi
Tere liye har roz hai jeete
Tujh ko diya mera waqt sabhi
Koi lamha mera na ho tere bina
Har saans pe naam tera
Kyunki tum hi ho
Ab tum hi ho
Zindagi ab tum hi ho
Chain bhi, mera dard bhi
Meri aashiqui ab tum hi ho
Tumhi ho... Tumhi ho...
Tere liye hi jiya main
Khud ko jo yun de diya hai
Teri wafa ne mujhko sambhala
Saare ghamon ko dil se nikala
Tere saath mera hai naseeb juda
Tujhe paake adhoora naa raha hmm..
Kyunki tum hi ho
Ab tum hi ho
Zindagi ab tum hi ho..
Chain bhi, mera dard bhi
Meri aashiqui ab tum hi ho"

Finally dedicating the song of my life to YOU.... ;) :*

!!! Avant de Au Revoir !!!

  Saturday was spent super well..but Sunday was my turn and after what she had done for me, I was confused about what special thing should I do to just be on the same bench mark as her...forget about doing more then what she had done for me...I had the idea of copying her (as always she thinks of me Copycat ;P) and pick up from her place...but it was a tough task as she was trying very hard to meet me on this day due to her constraints and busy schedule. But what after we meet...where should we go keeping into account the limited time we had...I asked her what she wanted to do, but as always her answer was I don't know and lets keep it simple..nothing special and all..I insisted her and after a long time she asked if its possible to go for a Metro ride..Considering the time we had I tried to figure out the plan but it was cut to cut time and if we miss it, we would be late and apart from that we would not get some space together..We had discussed this earlier about going together and that's why she had asked for it and so I kept this option open for us. But I have to have a plan B for it and then I thought of the place where we could sit down and spend some quality time together...Between this she came up with a movie name asking me if its released somewhere nearby the place and if we can go for it...A movie plan was already spoiled a week ago due to some unforeseen issues but this time I wanted to make up for it. I instantly checked for it but to add my miseries it was nowhere released in the nearby cinemas..but I went to check out the storyline and I was happy, confused and excited to see the movie she had chosen..It was already released in some another countries so I checked if I can get it online and we could watch it together. Bang...I got it and that too in a very good print and I was more then happy to inform her about it. So now I had something to the rescue...all thanks to her..

 I had to get up early again tomorrow and this time...I had to arrange a lot of things...all small things which she likes or I wanted to do for her..so we bid good bye to each other and slept. My mind went through a lot of things...wondering about tomorrow...Is this it?? What would happen tomorrow?? Why this day had to come and that too so early when things are yet undecided...and what not..

With all this and little sleep I got up early next morning and got ready as the previous day...I had to wait for her ping for the timings as decided yesterday. After sometime I got her ping so that I planned accordingly and left from ma place. I collected all the things one by one and searched for the remaining ones here and there and reached the station..The train came in sometime and so did the ping from her that read "Leave when I tell you..." but I informed her, "I already did and would be there in sometime". She informed me that she is not ready and would take all the required time and this would be my punishment. I replied with an Ok, no problem and was almost at her station. I decided to walk as she would take time and I had to take the remaining things as well..I got in the shops and could not get one thing anywhere..At one shop I glanced and turned to leave...the shopkeeper called me from behind asking what I was looking for and I told him with confidence because I didn't found it...but he then showed me that and I was like what was I thinking...why couldn't I see it there.I took that and left...I didn't knew her exact place so I went to the point she left me yesterday and found a shade as it was very sunny..I was standing for almost 20 mins and then took a seat and then after another 20 mins...I could see a girl rapidly walking on opposite side of the road...she was almost running...I got up and sprinted towards the opposite side and then behind her..I didn't want to shout her name and she was walking very fast and when she stopped at a point and looked down towards her mobile, I went from behind and asked her "Are you looking for someone??" It was clearly visible from her face and heavy breathing how much she had hurried up the things to get down here asap...The very first question was "What is wrong with you??" I was just looking at her...and I didn't answered her question but I said "Why are you looking so dull today??" She got more furious on that remark and I said that all of a sudden without thinking of anything how would she feel about it. (Though I came to know later she was unhappy with me on that remark of mine about her) Then we had to decide on a place as we were already running late by almost 40-45 mins. She suggested some nearby places but I insisted on going to a place of my choice. We immediately took a rick for the station and as soon as we got in, I gave her one of the things...she was just looking at it and wondering about the color this time I chose....I told her don't think and just take it..but she didn't and I kept it forcefully on her lap. She picked it up and kept in the bag...thankfully she had brought a big bag to occupy all the things I had brought for her...

  The station came in this time and we got down from rick and walked to the platform. A train was already coming in a minute as per indicator and so we rushed to get in but as soon as we reached there she denied to get in the crowded train with me..We waited for another train and decided to take different coach if the next train is crowded as well. In the meantime I went through my pockets to give her the second thing and she shared it with me, also we shared a light moment on it about the 'count'. Soon the train arrived and it was similarly crowded so I took her to the nearby ladies 1st class coach and rushed to get in mine. We got separated for another 10 mins in our meet but because she was comfortably traveling, I could wait for her till that time. As the station came I got down and walked towards her coach. We walked towards the rick stand and got into one for the place we  wanted to go. As the rick started I again went through my bags to give her the third thing but she refused to accept it. After convincing her a lot she accepted it. She was not accepting because she thought it was a waste of money for me, seeing my current circumstances but it was not. We talked about it and in sometime we reached the place. While walking towards it, she said she would pay for it today or she is not coming in...I knew she would come anyways but as she was adamant I let her pay and we went inside..Soon we found a good place to sit with no disturbance and she removed the 1st thing to check it out and kept it on the table. As we didn't had anything for breakfast we ordered it first. The music or songs playing in the background was just perfect for my situation. I started murmuring it along and she was looking at me...because the playlist was just well suited for the situation I had. Soon we had the breakfast with a hiccup where we changed the food ordered for her.

  Looking at watch and the time left for us, I started the movie she asked for yesterday and we saw it together with the same headphone on my mobile ~ Ya our first movie together...the storyline was quite similar to our situation...At some situation or scenes in the movie I would get excited...but she kept a very low profile about herself or feelings. At some of the adult kinda scenes she would ask to forward it but at one instance the scene would come again and start at the same point...she was like "You wanna see her...so you are repeating the scene again and again...Dekh le.." But seriously it was not like that. At some of the scenes I could relate it with my own situation and tried to control my eyes drops...and sometimes I used to tell her "You see that..." The movie was soon over and I was very happy with its climax. Soon we got up to leave. I wanted to have something sweet together because I heard somewhere "Jab ache dost bichad rahe hote hai, toh unhe kuch meetha khana chahiye saath mein..." But as she was getting late she denied and said she was full and didn't want to have anything. It was one of the thing in my list and I didn't want to miss it...so considering the time factor I went for a work around thing which we took as a parcel. We took a rick to the station and again I went through the things to give her the next one...This time it was Best of Luck wish from my side for her upcoming exams...I could see in her eyes how happy she was taking this..she always says NO for everything first but for this she readily accepted it...After this came the last one but definitely not the least. The thing from where it all had started and used the same words while giving it to her....she was very much surprised and said "Even I was searching for the same thing to give it to you...asked my sis as well where I can find but culdn't find one, have you read this already?"  I told her I have already read it and also she should ask me before gifting me something to read to which she replied "How can I tell or ask you when its a surprise for you... ;P "  Also an idea of autograph came into our mind...and I did on the most important page. The station arrived soon and we started walking towards the platform. 

   I could see on her face, something was bothering her and I had a little idea about it...but when I asked her she gave me some vague reasons....I knew as always she had different words in her mouth and different thought in her mind or probably heart which her face was conveying...her eyes were controlling the tears..We got settled down on the regular seats...she was a little better or was trying her best to be...In the meanwhile I also tried to be calm as I had already decided...I didn't want to breakdown in front of her...I had many things to say to her...before I go...I started asking to keep her hand on my hand...I somehow gathered the strength and was telling her about my feelings again, I don't how many times I already did that...and my phone ringed and it was ma parents so I had to take it...They were coming to station and were going to the same place as we where, so I had to tell her and we changed our place and went a little far away.....we again settled down and I answered some of her doubts and was trying to continue with what I was saying...The call had disturbed my tempo and flow and the feelings which I was trying to convey to her...She said its ok and go on...I tried to recollect things and told her.....whatever I told her had mixed feelings from my side...something I didn't wished to say her but just to make her comfortable I did it....Soon the train arrived...I saw if my parents are around and then we board the train...The destination of train was same as ours and so it was very empty. Still she was standing there and we relived the moment of cage which we like a lot...After sometime we went inside and settled down and continued with normal chat. Soon the station had arrived and people started to get down....I had accepted a challenge from her and I completed it in my own style...to which she questioned what was it and I happily told her Challenge completed. She didn't react much...This was the very first time I had touched this way and that very second was just unforgettable...We walked out of the station and she checked how much time we had after the constraint thing  and confirmed that we can have a little more time to spend together..
 
  We again went to the place where we always met and stood there for sometime...Talking of things about us...the challenge which I completed in my own way and what it would have been if I would have done it in real and where...she said I too like it that way...I said jokingly..."Should I??" Instantly she replied with a No.... :( We started walking towards her home....through the same roads we always used to take...through the markets and places where we stood or have been together...last time before I leave. We had a refreshing drink together...our last thing before I leave...I wanted to share the same but she was not comfortable so I dropped the plan..But the vendor gave only one drink and we shared a light moment about it...and had separate drinks.We sat there and had the drink peacefully...Again we started walking...and I saw the landmark to her place and thought why do this has to come so early...As soon as we were there..we shook hands and she tried to pay me for all the remaining meets to which I refused to take but as always she was adamant... so I took a amount as a shagun from her. We walked a little more and reached to the place where she left me yesterday night and I was waiting for her in the morning. 

I asked her "Is this it??" We were looking at each other...I was at least expecting a hug from her but in her mind she didn't want to give me that as a memoria....I tried more but she again gave a vague reason which I didn't buy but had to give in..She said lets walk ...and quickly I wrapped my left hand towards her left shoulder and took it away immediately.....still nothing from her side...We walked a little and stopped near a building and she told its the place where she lives...I saw the building name and people moving around there and decided to leave her now...She stopped a rick for me...I didn't wanted to go yet...but she insisted...I didn't want to see her while I leave so I told her to go inside first...I got into the rick and saw her last time before I leave...she was far away...and soon the rick took away from the place...And now I couldn't control and my eyes dropped it...I had asked her not to do so...and here I myself did it...I knew we are gonna talk to each other as always we did...that's not gonna stop but not seeing her or not being with her...that thought was the main culprit of all this.....Again in the night...we talked as always and I waited for her to board the mid night train...she asked me to sleep and not wait but I did it and after confirmation from her...I bid her a good bye...

Thousands of thoughts were going through my mind and I was almost not able to sleep that night 
Is this it?? She is gone and and would be back a week later...I would board the bus on the same day she would board the train to come back...This time I won't be there when she comes back...I would go far away from everybody important in my life for a long time...new place...new beginning...memories..nostalgic...

TBC later...

P.S. Tumshe judaa hokar muje dur jaana hai...
       Tumshe judaa hokar muje dur jaana hai... 

:'(

!!! Sweet Memories !!!

  It was a weekend plan before I leave...and I decided that Saturday would be her choice of place,planning and Sunday would be mine. We met on Friday evening to decide it but she said she was not sure about what needs to be done on Saturday as she is not much of a planner in such kinda things..But somewhere I knew she would do something special for sure..but I couldn't guess what it would be. When we had our regular chat on Friday night she said about her busy schedule in the early afternoon, so there was no other choice but to meet her early morning 9 am. She didn't mention 'am' and I thought she was saying to meet in the evening at this time and that too at a place away from her own. I strictly denied to her and we had an small argument only to realize about my misunderstanding. I agreed about the time and she confirmed whether I am free on that time or not. I was and even if I was not, I can make time for her. With this we shared Bye's and were fast asleep as I didn't wanted to be late as always, I was and I knew she is thinking the same as she is also not a morning person like me.

  I was in deep sleep and suddenly woke up to see the time and it was still 3.40 am and I again jumped to bed, again I did the same at 4.30 am, 6 am, and finally woke up at 7 am. I hurriedly finish my daily chores and my parents were happy to see me up so early and getting ready so fast. I pinged her before leaving bed but there was no reply until she said she would be late and I should not leave my place till I get her next ping. It was already around 8.20 am something and I kept my phone for charging and forgot to remove it from silent profile..assuming she would take another 30-45 mins..I couldn't wait that long so I decided to receive her at the station without informing her and unplugged my mobile. What I saw on screen was her message "I am standing near your building..." I jumped to see outside my window but couldn't see her near my building gate..(I knew she is not good at address and roads) I wore my sandals instead of shoes and ran from home without answering Mom. When I went outside the gate I could see her standing in front of a gate of my nearby building looking for me and then she turned to see at me coming from behind and that moment was just priceless. I couldn't react to that and kept on asking her "Why's and How's...nd all". So we moved and she said she wanted to see the place which was pending from a long time which gave me solace...We headed straight over there..this time the roads were the same but going with her gave me a different feeling...There was this place in between for our favorite breakfast but as it was not viable to eat over there itself and no other place where we could have taken the parcel to eat..so had to drop that plan..Slowly moving towards that place...seeing it in front of us...we went to the exact position where I sit. "This is it...." I said to her. For the first time she told to hold her hand and I was shocked at what she was saying but instantly did it with fastening heartbeats..Holding it freeze my hand and suddenly the blood flow stopped to make it look white or gora in color. I took some pics of it and with many trials, we could get the best pics of it. Then we left from there after sometime..and we discussed whats next?? I argued it to go for movie nearby but she already had some different plans... "Can we go there.... " she said and I instantly said Yes..because that was the thing I always wanted to do with her. She had already planned about the train and all but was keeping a low profile to make it instant...We took an auto and reached station..I knew that train would be crowded even if it was an Saturday as I already took that train for sometime for office. I informed her about that but she wanted to come with me and even I wanted the same but I couldn't be that selfish when I knew she could comfortably travel if we travel separately..I was able to convince her somehow and dropped her till her coach and got quickly into my regular coach only to find some regular face and many of them were new. I wanted her to take rest as I knew it was not normal for her to be up so early but she did this all for me..and that feeling was more then the world for me. It was about an hour journey and I wanted to check on her but the stupid network didn't allowed it via messages and I didn't want to call her and disturb just in case she was asleep.

  

  Again it was the same feeling when we were in the same train but different coaches and soon we were gonna get down and meet each other. I received her messages just before we were gonna get down but she did that 20 mins ago which clearly said she didn't sleep and was over thinking clearly. Our destination was same as train's and so we got down comfortably and I walked towards her coach direction...but she had already got down and we met and walked towards the exit from the station. The TT stopped us to check the tickets and the way she proudly showed her special pass and the look on her face was very cute. I was going to that place after a long time like more than couple of years and what could be best then going again and that too with her. We walked to the place through some old memories and recollecting the path as well. Walking slowly towards the place and the time we were having together cannot be compared to anything. We reached the place and had a small discussion on some of the beliefs...and it was divine when we actually were at the place together....The time as if could have freeze there itself....I wished...We sat there for some time and I could see the dream coming true and had good time. Then we came out of that place and I asked her to again sit at one of the place..the place was sloppy but still we managed to sit there and then I asked her to close her eyes and forward her hand towards me...then I slipped the thing from my pocket and kept it on her hand...I didn't know how she would feel about it...but it was very special for me and what could have been a better place then this to express my divine feeling towards her...for the first time she said the word "I jus ... it" and my purpose was fulfilled with it...Soon we had something to eat as she was hungry from morning and rushed to the station in taxi..to which she paid forcefully..

  There was again a local from there to our place and we went to the platform and soon there was an announcement of change in platform...again we relived the moments of running for trains holding hands and reached there to catch the train in time and occupied our seats.. After sitting I could how tired she was running between the platforms and also the exertion she took for the day...and all this for me...I was just looking at her face..I knew she wanted to sleep...I offered her the pillow but she denied..the headrest on another side of her..but denied that too...the time past very soon then the time it took in the morning to reach..At one moment of time I was continuously looking at her and she was like What? and turned away my face multiple times...I knew I was missing something that could happen but it didn't happen...and we continued to look at each other..By this time our station came and we got down and soon I walked her to the rick thanking her for the most wonderful time I have had with her today....

P.S: You try your best every time to fulfill my wish and speak a hundred lies for me...❤ 

The time we had was the time of my life which I could never get again apart from you...You say you are not good at planning things...but the day could not have been better and I had lost hope that we could ever visit that place...but you chose it on your day...just PRICELESS. I cannot express more here but you could have seen it on my face.... I was like this all the time 😁😁😁😁 and it would stay the same with you throughout our life. 

Sharing with me what you were reluctant of doing and me realizing the same at that moment...Just no words for that...

!!! A New Beginning !!!

(Continuing from A Journey to Remember)

The feeling that I had from the last few hours was just awesome....I joined my parents and we went to my uncle's house there. It was a plan of a day more (the present Sunday and Monday). But her plan of stay was entire week. We continued to talk when ever we could get some time on these days because basically her stay was pleasant but mine was boring except the convos with her. 

  I again boarded the train for my return journey and text her that we won't have convos until she is away. She replied affirmatively to that and we stopped the convos for some days...I don't know whether she was feeling the same way or not but I was badly missing her and our convos and was just waiting for her to come back. When the day arrived she said "Same journey, same coach but you know what's missing..." and I knew whom it was for with a wide smile on my face. The regular convos started again upon her arrival with some hiccups mostly from my side. The next big thing I wanted was to meet her after that short trailer. We had already discussed this many times in our convos but I wanted her to be first comfortable to meet me, when I had given her so many reasons not to. But she always replied positively about the meet despite of all the hiccups. I was just waiting for that day to come and few weeks later on a weekend, we were planning our first meet or should I say "date". It was an awesome feeling, I wanted everything to be perfect...the place, ambiance etc. Finally we decided on a date and time according to our prior commitments. It was decided to meet exactly after 7 days and the countdown had began...I used to bore her with the countdown message everyday. I was excited and not at all nervous, but she was a bit nervous and that was quite clear in her convos. But as the days went by, the nervousness was gonna be transferred on my side and she would feel more comfortable as she had let me know. She had asked me something for the first time and I wanted to give it to her at any cost. But the cost was not at all that big but the moments it gave were priceless.

  Finally the day was nearby, I was thinking of how it would go and whether everything would be fine or not. The night before my or should I say ours big day, the convo went on till late night more then our normal time and I had many things left from my side on the To-do list. The most important of them was to take the chocolate that was left from our last meet and the second most was to go through all our convos till date to keep track of everything that had happened between us and the things that we said, we would share when we meet face-to-face. We exchanged quick Bye's only to see each other soon in the morning. Co-accidently (Ya we used this word) this time my parents were not at home, so I could go on and on for late night but had to get up early to complete some household chores and get ready for the big day. Yes it was a very big day for me, probably it was going to be the best one for which I was waiting from the last 24 years. But this time, I was not at all nervous as I thought I would be...was just being normal and calm. I completed the chores soon and started to get ready and wanted to look perfect more then the last time...but the time went away so fast and I was already running late by 10 minutes to the scheduled time. I quickly went to the ATM and then got something for her...which she likes the most and had also asked for the same in the convos. I messaged her of me being running late and there was no reply from her side by then. Though it was a Sunday, the trains were packed as any normal working day and there was no connecting train from the nearby platforms. The first train at that moment to my destination was on the platform far away from my current one and so I had to sprint to get in it on time before it departs. After I got into the train I checked her message and there were like 6-7 messages from her, even some of them were before my last one which were loaded this time. She had already reached on time and was waiting for me...but in her message she bullied me by saying, she would go away in the next train, whether I am gonna join her or not? and many more things...but the last one read...I will wait....got down at station and sitting.

  My heart was pumping heavily now as the station was coming near by and I went closer to the gate and the train was entering the station at that moment...I saw her sitting there, looking for me in the train...I got down before the train stopped and moved towards her...she got up and I caught my ears for being late, making her wait while I should have been there before her or at-least should have been there on time. She said me something which I didn't remember because my attention was grabbed on how fab she was looking and I  turned away my face from her to be in my limits. I asked her whether she wanna go somewhere else or the same place that we had decided or rather where I wanted to take her and she told "NO, lets go there only.." The next thing she was asking me was about being late in a sarcastic way, whether I was doing household chores and I replied to that with a Yes and the list of work I did this morning.. All this time I was walking ahead of her and slightly faced towards her. We went to the nearby rick stop and I asked her to wait, while I'll go and get a rick for us. I got one and asked her to get inside the rick and I followed her inside..I hesitated to start a convo so I started it with the driver asking him if he knows the exact location and whether he can drop us at the place itself. (Yes we went to a place which was new for both of us.) He replied to leave us on the landmark and we need to find it out after that. At that moment, we stopped at a signal, where two lady beggars approached us and gave blessing to us as a couple...I shooed them away without realizing how important that was for me...Then I looked at her and she was like "Pata nai yaar, yeh log aisa kyu karte hai...kisi ko bhi saath mein dekh kar aisa aashwirwad kaise de sakte hai..." I was thinking like "Yehi toh mujhe chahiye tha..." and then we discussed how these beggars especially small children harass to get some money.
 
  As soon as there was some silence, I did a hand gesture to let her know how beautiful she was looking...and the expression she was gave at that moment was priceless for me..I wanted to hold her hand but knew my limits and stopped myself...soon I gave her what I had brought for her and asked her to give one of them to her sis who was covering for both of us...We again started with some regular discussion and soon the rick stopped, driver told us this is our landmark. I asked her if its OK to get down here and search the location on our own and if she was fine with it. I gave Rs 50 note to driver and the meter read Rs.29, he gave me a note of Rs.20 and for the first time I let go my one rupee that too with happiness and even without the driver asking for it. I asked an uncle going nearby about the address and he pointed in the opposite direction..I said her Lets go...again I wanted to hold her hand while we were crossing the road but my limits didn't allow me to do that and I was walking a feet away from her but checked if she was crossing safely...Now we were walking close to each other and our store was just few steps away. I opened the door for her and we entered inside and asked her where should we settle down...she chose to sit at the last while I suggested her to sit at a  nearby seats but we went to the last seats and I offered her seat by pulling it back for her...never did anything like this before but was trying to do whatever I knew or saw. But she said its Ok and got ithe opposite seat..we shared a light joke on her seat position and she told lets go where you wanted to sit but I felt we were sitting at the perfect place. To get started I asked what would she like to have and she said to just wait for sometime...I said Ok. She went through her bag and gave two chocs, one each for my best friends and then a gift for me...

I was shocked...what should I do because I didn't had any experience of accepting gifts and that too from a girl....I said NO but she said, she would go away if I don't accept it...also god won't spare me for this if I don't accept it...I knew she won't go, but I gave up on my guilt and accepted it. I  behaved rudely, even didn't thank her for the gift or opened that in front of her...After sometime she said its ok to order now and I asked her choice of drink and she selected the same one which I wanted her to have. I went to the counter to order it and returned to her....we started talking again and then I told her everything about me and my life...nobody had heard me with this concentration...I was constantly looking into her eyes and talking...she did became conscious at moments every now and then and I would take my eyes off for a moment and then again into her eyes and face.Whatever I was talking to her was not at all planned and was just coming out directly from somewhere...

   It was becoming impossible for me to take my eyes off her and soon they called us to pick up the order. She asked if she should assist me but I denied...At least now I had something to distract myself from her, but still I continued to do so...We discussed many things about ourselves one by one and then came to the point which was of the most importance and probably she came for that only. She had told me in the convos she would win and I told her, I wont let you...but each time she was trying to say something she felt nervous with the way I was looking at her...it was very clear on her face and gestures. She was to be the confident one and me the nervous one as discussed last night but things turned around vice-verse. Our arguments went on and on without looking at the time...I told her many things, asked her few things and she would just blush and get nervous at whatever I did or ask her, tell her. She told me many things about her which I actually didn't knew. She tried to get the strength each time and speak but again she would lose it when she saw me looking at her. Unplanned or impromptu I asked her if I can say her the heart gushing words which I had already told her two times in the convos..she said "No..." and her face became so red and I said that to her...This time too I wanted to hold her hands but her nervousness took her hands on her face and I had to again control myself. There were many things I told her just to let her know how I felt about her, but she was just thinking "why me??"  I tried to give her every reason I had, to convince her but her mind didn't allow her to gulp it. Just in the same way when a first-timer wants to have a hard drink but at the same time controls the mind to not loose the self control. The talks were on and on and suddenly she turned my wrist watch to have a look at time and it was time for her to go, but she stayed. I was happy as well as worried for her...so I decided to stay for next 30 minutes. Our discussions throughout the time were right from past life, ex, career, future,present and what not. I was in the flow and an store attendant approached us if we can help them taste new thing and made me forget what I was saying...and then I was striving hard to recollect the flow. Then she showed me her pics along with some friends but who was looking at friends when the most beautiful one was sitting right in front of me. I also got rude to her when she tried to talk about her present, which I realized later in the day. The clock showed it was time to go even if I didn't want to and somewhere even she didn't want to.

  The saying or experiment  "Time moves faster when you are with your loved ones.. " became so true  for me today..We got up and replied Bye to the attendant and I got the door for her...We went to the rick stand to go to the station. I had told her that it is between two stations, so it will take same time to reach the another station as well..I was under the impression that she stayed at the another station and asked if we should take rick to her home but she surprised me by saying she stays somewhere else even beyond my station...She had given me a lot of such surprises today...but I was liking each and every one of them...I asked her whether the time she spent with me was perfect or not and the thing we had at the store....she replied it was..and then went into the flow, telling me how after many days she is wearing what she likes to wear and how she enjoyed all the moments like reliving the college life. I don't know how, but I replied to her "Just think about these things you just told me and reconsider your decision..." and I looked away from her thinking in my mind did I actually said that to her? And she replied me "You always leave me in jitters..." I saw that we were nearby the station and she went through her bag and handed over a Rs.50 note for traveling expense. (She was very adamant that she would give her share for everything we spend and then only she will meet me, but somehow I managed to make her understand and paid our first date bill but would take her share for anything else we do. ) The meter this time read around Rs.40 and she was trying to pay me for the last time too..I took that and returned her change of Rs.30 which she was not taking...I told her I don't wanna touch you so please take this...and kept it on her bag. I hurriedly got down and by mistake handed over the same Rs.50 note to the driver and took the change and realized that only after the rick had passed. I wanted to keep that note to me. As it was Ganesha Festival going on, there was a pandal outside the station and there I saw her praying. We started walking towards the platform and this time I was quite near to her instead of moving ahead or away. To strike a convo I asked her, If her father would meet us around or not? To which she replied yes he is at office today but you don't need to worry about this..because it would be me who will face the music from him. I didn't knew how to reply to that but I said if required "Toh yaad kar lena mujhe..."

  Soon we were looking at the indicator and the train arrived on the same platform which would take us both home and we started walking towards the front side of the train. We had decided that she would come along with me in the train when we are going back home. Suddenly when we stopped she told me "Lets skip this train and have some more time together..." I couldn't believe my ears on this and my facial expressions were mixed with shock and happiness. I respected that and told her its ok and lets see when is the next train and on which platform...Till this time the train was there...but the indicator showed there was no direct train for her in another 20 minutes but there was one for my location. She asked me, would I get a connecting train from there or we have to change platforms...I replied yes we need to change but she was ok with it...but somehow I was not and I told her lets find some silent place for us in the train on this platform and by the time we find that the train started. The train to my home location was expected in a minute and we saw it was arriving on the other platform. I told her "Moti, lets run and catch that train, you will lose some weight too... ;P" She replied with a smile and we hurried to that platform. Again I moved fast leaving her behind me and till the time we reached the platform, the train was already crowded and we decided to skip that train too. This time I was standing facing her looking into her big deep eyes and realizing that they are brown just like her natural hair color. I told her about this to which she replied "Yes I know, many people told me that..." I was not expecting this answer but can understand that she didn't knew how to react to that. The next train was only after 10 minutes and I wanted her to get into this one anyhow. We decided that the plan of going together needs to be scraped in order to get her home in time. So we started walking on the front side and again I walked ahead of her as there was too much crowd on platform...Then we were at the place where I told her about where I was waiting for her during our last train journey and where I went instead of taking a turn on this side. She said I was not here at all, so you wouldn't have found me here. We stood there itself as I thought it would be ladies compartment looking at the ladies on the other side of platform. Again I was looking at her face and could not get my eyes off it. (This time I wanted to grab that face in my hands and just... but I controlled myself to be in the limits. ) I told her to slap me and distract me from doing this as I knew I was making her feel uncomfortable..but she didn't. Instead she was telling me to look at a girl nearby who was beautiful and also about the other girl at the previous platform. I replied her "I am looking at the most beautiful girl right now.." and she replied "You always leave me speechless..." 

   An outstation train arrived on the platform and she told me, she had traveled in this train. She said her dad is fond of traveling and that they were deciding to go for an outing of 2-3 days and told me the location if I knew. I replied "Yes I know about all the locations...but haven't been there. I need someone to accompany me" She instantly asked me "You need company for everything na??" I replied her "Its like something which is left incomplete in my life till now and I want someone to come and complete that for me...complete my life by being the better half literally... " By this time the train already left and it was time for our train to arrive. We came near to the edge of platform to get some space...but the coach was a general one with a lot of crowd. I wanted her to get in this train anyhow...She was saying something from behind...I told you the ladies coach is still ahead and I told her Lets run... Again I was in front and she was behind me...but somehow my right hand was stretched behind and it was hold by an another one..running on the crowded platform shooing away everybody on the way...we got near to the Ladies first class coach and just a step away I told her "Here you are...go..(leaving her hand...)" She got into the train safely and it started at the same time...She waived me with the expression to which I thought "I don't wanna go yet..." and I turned my face away thinking..."Please stay.." Then I looked at a married young lady who was smiling at me after seeing what we had did....I couldn't get into the same train as of her today on both the occasions. I climbed the foot over bridge to see which is the next train for me and from which platform and I saw it arriving at another platform and ran to get in with the gift she gave me...The train was so much crowded that I thought its good she already left...But somewhere in my mind I was thinking that if we had not skipped the first train, we would have traveled together till my home location and have ran again there to get her into the ladies compartment for the remaining journey.

TBC....maybe...

P.S.: Thanks would be a small word to say for the precious moments that you gave me today and above all you trusted me to spend your valuable time, though you had all the constraints and odds in your life. I saw a new side of me today which I thought never existed...be it the confi I am talking about or you know what I am talking about...Ya I also did some mistakes today which were being rude to you when you wanted to talk about your present or the regret from what happened to you even when I was there...but the most memorable parts were your blushing face when you asked to skip the train....the way I was looking at you at the platform and asked you to slap me.....and the one when we ran holding hands. But the moment when I had to leave your hand and you waived from the moving train were the most painful.  I hope it was the same for you as well..... 

I know you wanted to visit that flyover where I find the solace...here it is....I would take you there very shoon....

" I wish GOD makes the words of those LADIES come true soon..."

And this is for you from my side......

"Ye dil tanha kyun rahe
Kyun hum tukdon mein jiye...

Main adhoora jee raha hoon
Hardum ye keh raha hoon
Mujhe teri Zaroorat hai
Mujhe teri Zaroorat hai

Andheron se tha mera rishta bada
Tune hi ujaalon se waaqif kiya
Ab lauta main hoon inn andheron mein phir
Toh paaya hai khud ko begaana yahaan
Tanhaayi bhi mujhse khafaa ho gayi
Banjaron ne bhi thukra diya
Main adhoora jee raha hoon
Khud par hi ik sazaa hoon
Mujhe teri Zaroorat hai
Mujhe teri Zaroorat hai
 

Haathon mein mere zanjeere hain
Tuhi aake inko nikaal zaraa
Kar mujhe yahaan se rihaa
Main adhoora jee raha hoon
Ye sadaayein de rahaa hoon
Mujhe teri Zaroorat hai
Mujhe teri Zaroorat hai....."

"I don't know what would be the climax of this chapter and how soon or long it would take...but I know one thing...I deserve the BEST as someone told me...and I don't need to tell it again and again that the BEST for me is YOU.."

!!! The Namesake !!!

contd...

This time it was a Science lecture and I was an Science aspirant...not by interest (although I didn't knew what my interest was?) but by the command of my parents who where influenced by some of my elder cousins saying that, there is no future if you don't take Science. The chapter was about the Element's Periodic table, but I couldn't get anything in my mind as the Prof was too fast and also he was very temperable. And then suddenly he burst out on a fellow student, this time again the student was the same person whose name was already there on the board with me. So suddenly I woke up and tried to concentrate because it gave me a feeling that I could be the next one if I don't concentrate. But that didn't make any difference and at the end of lecture, I was zero...nothing went in my mind. I just took a sigh of relief because the lecture was finally over and the subsequent lectures also came to an end the same way. I wanted something interesting to happen in my life apart from all these stuff and was thinking about it on the way back home.

   My cycle friend Suchit who stayed in the same building called up and told me to go along with him somewhere..I had a rough day so I went with him to freshen up my mind. He took me two blocks away across our building and then we met his friend who stayed there..He told something to Suchit, but I didn't pay any attention and then after sometime they exchanged smiles and we said Bye. Suchit informed me that she, the girl whom I saw during our cycle ride last time, was staying in the same building and he gave me her other details. I already knew about her school and Classes but not her name and address which I had now. The name was 'Kruti' and the name was now echoing in my mind and heart. When I knew that she stays just blocks away across the road, I was super happy. I didn't had any words to thank my friend and his friend. He did this for me without me even asking for it. I felt it right then but now when the years have passed, I think that kinda stalking was not good and it totally didn't suit my nature at all....But at that time I was not wise and as told earlier influenced by anything and everything. Slowly... Slowly that kinda nature and habit grew in me day by day with the influence. 

  The result of test was announced in some days and I was able to score only 21 on 25 while many of them had 24 and even 25 including the topper, captain and moreover the girl from whom I had win the quiz. It was very embarrassing and even my Prof was not happy with my scores. He asked what happened when I gave all the answers correctly in the class with the minute details but failed to do so in the test paper. I couldn't answer him anything and thought, So what should I do next? I didn't knew. The only thing which was going good in my life currently, was the growing friendship with Rachit and Ashwin. We were becoming kinda besties and were having a lot of fun during breaks. We had decided that only one of us would pay the bill for the day, so today me, tomorrow Rachit and after that Ashwin. It went on for next two days...but on third day which was Ashwin's turn we went to our regular shop for Samosa...we ate it and left. I thought Ashwin had already paid while ordering, but later on he told us, he didn't taking advantage of the crowd. So we can have some thing more in our break later. It was kinda shop lifting which I didn't liked but slowly it was fun doing it...though I would pay every time when it was my turn.

   It was not allowed to go out in short break but we went to the snacks shop nearby to have something daily. Rachit and Ashwin would go to the shop and I would keep an eye on the road if in case any Prof comes early. They went to take one thing and would start eating another like farsan (kinda munching) whatever they could find (or should I say shop lifting) and even get some of them for me and we used to eat that outside the classroom.

Tbc...

!!! A Journey to Remember !!!

....It was an Saturday and I was in office doing nothing, so tried to utilized the time to update my skill-set. It went so well that I continued for two hours at a stretch instead of one or should I say two Chapters continuously. I was waiting for the ping but probably she was busy and I knew she was not well too. But suddenly I saw an "Gudaftrnun" ping with the special name she had given to me. She also answered all my questions that I had asked her in the message this morning and a "Sry" for not coming earlier... It was not at all required and I explained her the same. Then she told me to give her a nick name, as the one she had given me because she didn't liked me calling her with original name. I asked her "Ku" and she replied "I guess u meant Kyu and its bas aise hi...force nai karugi...bt i wud call u with the same name. ;P". I told her that it was indeed a "Kyu" but in a sweet way and she smiled. Also I suggested a nickname for her and it was related to what she had given to me. She gave a wide smile upon that.

    

  I had earlier told her about me going out of town but where and when, I told her now. Surprisingly she replied with "Tu kaunsi train se ja raha hai? O_O meri heartbearts bahar nikalne wali hai...jaldi bata..." I told her it was a mid-night train and I thought her father being in Railways would be there in that train but that was only a wild guess and I didn't meant it in a serious manner. The next thing she replied was "Aur main native place ja rahi hu..meri b aaj midnite train hai..aur almost a week waha rahugi... hum log same train me toh nai? :P" Now even my heartbeats also started pumping and I was already praying to God please...please...make it happen. I told her the train name to which she replied "Oh my god oh my god oh my god!!!!!! Mera dil bahar aa gaya...dies.. :D :D". I was confused to understand anything but my gut feeling said Yes!!!Yes!!!Yes!!!

  But I was surprised that she didn't told me this earlier and I asked her the same thing, she replied that she told me about it earlier but I may have forgot. I was curious about it and asked her whether she would be available on messages while she is out of town because we both were marwaris to do a netpack and only used wi-fi at home. She replied "Hahaha...WHAT A CO ACCIDENT! ;) ;) Aur me net pack karwa ke jaugi zyada khush mat ho samjha..bachega nai tu :P ;)". Now the feeling was like "Dil Garden Garden ho gaya..." couldn't control myself and I knew it was the same on her side as well. The following message proved it so "Ye toh maine sapne main b nai socha tha ;) Ekdum filmy ho gaya :P Wo Geet Shahid wala scene ho jata parents nai hote to ;) :P"

  

  We had already discussed this movie "Jab We Met" in our previous convos but never ever thought that something like this would come up in our life. Somewhere in our heart we both wanted to meet each other but on the face, we made some or the other excuses of not meeting and then it was time for me to leave for home. So we shared Bye, only to continue at the normal time we used to talk or should I say message. That day I was going early from my shift time, so thought of traveling by train but then a colleague informed me that cab is available and I can join him....I too agreed as didn't want to get tired so early as it was going to be a long day. But one wrong decision and you get stucked in Mumbai Traffic. The Nakabandi was on due to upcoming festivals throughout the week. It took me one and half hour more then the normal time. I was thoroughly tired which was not on the list. Somehow I managed to reach home by 7 pm and had to do the packing for myself and as well as for family. Being a hosteler, last moment packing was a skill. This was also discussed earlier in the afternoon with her...as she was also a fellow hosteler. The time went away too fast during this and it was 9 pm already which was the time to message her but I had some grooming left, wanted to look perfect if by any chance we met. I took some more time today and it was already around 9.35 pm. There was no message yet.....I pinged her and there was a delayed response but it made me go Blush blush...Again some normal talks but the topic for today was related to our traveling. We discussed how Mom's take tension before the journey and how they move from place to place to check if everything is OK.

     I was ready to go but she was not and so she took a leave to continue back when we are free. I decided to leave at 11 pm from home but Mom was eager and I had to give up, so we left 15 minutes earlier. Me along with my family reached the boarding station at around 11.45 pm, taking into account the locals running late by 30 minutes and time taken to change the platform along with luggage. I saw an empty seat below the foot over bridge and settled down there, although it was dark. I took a random walk along the platform 6 to kill some time. But hardly the time flew and it was 12.15 am and there were still 23 more minutes to board the train. Soon there was an announcement that the train will come up on platform number 4 instead of 6. Mom started again, I immediately took the luggage and started walking towards the bridge which thankfully was very near. I took out my mobile and messaged her about the announcement just in case she had not arrived yet. I was getting down on platform 4 and walked straight.  (had I taken a u turn....read it later)

  

  Another train arrived from which I guessed the position of coach and walked along with my family still thinking why there was no reply yet. The time flew too quick and our train arrived, I managed to get in along with luggage from one door and asked my parents to board it from second door of the S4 coach. Coincidentally or should I say Co-accidentally the seats were not together, my parents settled down at 31, 32 and me at 70. After my parents settled at their seats, I went to my seat and climbed to the upper left berth. The neighbor on the right berth had already slept and seemed to be a beautiful girl. I took out my mobile and then saw her reply. The data was not working for her till now....I messaged her that I am now settled. I told her about the neighbor and she replied "Wo main hi toh hu ;) bt meri to kismat kharab rhti hai hamesha..tharki buddhas ya fir buck buck aunties..no mast munda :/" I knew that girls also tadofies the boys but I wanted to confirm it from her to which she replied ":P toh kya tum ladke aankhe seko and hum log chup bethe rahe? no wayz ;)" I kept on texting as we both were relying on mobile data network which would soon go off and roaming would start. By the time my home location came, I messaged her...she was smart enough to guess it right as always. I informed her about the choclairs I brought along with me in case, she would meet but now I have to eat it all alone...and as expected her answer was "Mote! akele khayega tu? paet dukhega ;)" I messaged her to come and join me but I knew it was not possible. 

    When I was busy texting her, a girl passed by, while I had full concentration in our convos but the strong perfume she was wearing got me to look up and by the time I did that, I could only have a side glance of her. The neighbor turned around in deep sleep and I found that she is not that good. I texted her about this and also about my head bump to which she replied ":P :P guess wat color m wearing? dhyan rakha kar na..us gori chiti ko dek raha hoga na to lg gaya ;)." But by the time I got this reply it was already around 1.30 am and I was feeling sleepy, so I had texted her about it. When I read her color question....I thought she also has this girly behavior and I had no experience how to answer that or tackle it. I replied her normally "I guess white or blue or pink..." She replied to sleep and also about the network fluctuation. She would message me once she is awake. When she received my reply for color guess she confirmed "Yay...it is one of this three but you sleep now."

     Before I went to sleep I texted her saying that "Lets see if tomorrow its possible to meet and have a cup of coffee at my destination place where the train would halt for10 mins." She replied with a smile "I wud try my best..bt if nai ho paya toh samajhna parental constraint aagaya koi :) we are sho close never thot dis..bless u ;)". Then I replied to her color question that I am sure its Blue  confidently. When she received this message she replied "O_O blue???? I should try to sleep now." I replied "Kyu blue nahi hai???" I waited for sometime but then there was no reply and I thought she had already slept and so I too tried sleeping. I was too tired the entire day....traveling to office in local during peak hours, then the traffic and then packing with no lunch the entire day and then leaving again to board the train....what a long day it was and normally I should have sleep by this time. But don't know why I couldn't sleep, turned here and there with heavy eyes....tried it for almost 30-45 minutes but still could not sleep. I again turned ON my data on mobile and what I saw was her reply. It was "Blue hi hai bt tuje kaise pata ye soch rahi ti..:P tune dekha kya muje?? ye trn kahin toh ruk gayi hai.." I replied that I wanted to take a round on the platform 4 to see if I could find her but I didn't do that because I wanted the suspense to go on. By the time I am replying this one more message came which said "Kaash thoda early wali train hoti..adventure b ho jata...raat bhar sote raho bas... :/ Surat b late ayega abi toh :/" She received my reply only then and texted that "Why u got up again and I am disturbing u and could not believe how u guessed the color right without seeing me...or was it a wild guess..." And then there was a question...."Btw tumhara coach engine se kitne no. pe h? :P. Surat kitne baje ata hai? ya gaya? i dnt knw exactly..bta if u knw.." I asked her what would she do knowing this and she replied "Bas ho jata adventure wo tu mujhpe chhod deta ;) Mera coach kafi piche hai 11th frm engine :P" 

    When I saw her coach number I instantly replied her that I am at 7th coach from engine...

There was a message from her saying what would be the next stop and she herself found out that Surat will be coming at morning 4.40 am which would be too late. Now she received my coach number text to which she replied "U mean we are jus 3 coaches away? My god! Itni paas main.... super filmy coaccident :P" My face was all blush blush....and I asked her "Kya bolti hai....lets meet at Surat and do some adventure." She replied "I have to check whether the door is closed and whether the attendant is there or not???" I told her that the door would surely be open at Surat....But her reply was delayed. Then she replied "Me check kar aayi...the door is closed and the attendant is sleeping.. :(" Again one more message came saying that "Maine door kholne ka try kiya and it opened and there was a station Vapi but tu nahi tha... :P". Before this message I got a random thought in my mind that "Is it the right time to meet and end the suspense??" but when I saw the message, I was thinking she is so daring and did this to check if we can meet and now it was my turn to do something. One more message "You sleep for now till Bharuch...I would keep disturbing you like this....Surat 4.40 ko aayega...and I wud wave u from window over there.. :P" Also "You knw maine gate khol ke dekha and everybody at d platform was ghooring me i realised it wen train moved :P" I replied her "Do you think I would be able to sleep now?? hahaha tu toh pakka Geet ban gayi..." She replied "Me disturbed your sleep na...and you wont be able to sleep after you see bhoot like me..." I had told her that I would not come down to Surat just to see a waving hand from her to which she replied "Tu toh bhaav khane laga....;P Tu tension na le aur ab sho ja...Also my probs is that my coach is not connected to other coach and if I miss the train and you would get in any coach and me Geet ki gaadi sach mein choot jayegi..." I replied her "I would come through the interconnected coaches till coach 10 and you wait on your door and get down only if you see me....you would again board the train after meeting and I would board only after you do." She replied "That's ok...but if my parents woke up and dont find me here...what wud I say??any solution" I told her to say "Bhuk lagi thi ya phir chai pine ka mann kiya aisha kuch bol dena...." She replied "Wo kya sochenge...kise se dosti kar li itni raat ko platform pe .. ;P Chai wo bhi subah 4 baje and bhuk....wont work...dont worry I handle it....facewash always works...;P. Nice plan..Yeh Raj and Simran wale scene jaisa lag raha hai....Waise hum dono mil kar kahenge kya??"
 

  Even I didn't knew what would I say to her when I see her for the first time but I replied her "Hi bolenge....choclairs dunga tereko...". She texted that her neighbors are constantly peeping out of window to check what station it is and guess they will get down at Surat....."I wont be able to say you anything....jus thrilled... ;P" I messaged her that the girl is not back yet to which she replied "Ajayegi wapas mote! Jaise isko uske bina nind nai ayegi... strong perfume gives me headache :/ and wud she gave u heartache ;)"  I replied her "Aisi bahot aati jaati rehti...doesn't matter." She messaged that "I'll text you around 4.20 before Surat comes...lets give the phone battery some rest.. and I want it to work atleast till you reach your destination". I agreed...it was almost 3.40 am now and 40 more minutes to go. This 40 minutes I was thinking of how it would go and I should not get asleep now...because I know I am a Kumbhkaran and won't get up once I am asleep. Somehow due to curiosity and the butterflies in the stomach...I managed to spend the time and as the clock struck 4.15 am, I got down from the berth and went to freshen up myself. I didn't want to meet her for the first time with untidy hair and sleepy look with red eyes. I finished it soon and started walking towards the 10th coach from engine. But I had to pass from my parents berth and I was worried if someone was up and ask me where I was going then what would I answer them. Somehow I managed to pass them covering my face even when it was almost dark there and started walking from one interconnection of coach to other. This was the first time I was passing through Interconnected coaches in my life and saw some people up and ready to get down at Surat and some in deep sleep. I managed to reach the S1 coach by 4.25 am and messaged her I have reached. Still there was 15 minutes to reach on schedule time to Surat. My mind was totally blank during this time but the confidence level was same as on the Quiz part. I saw her message that "Surat aane wala hai na?? If my family wakes up then I would be expression less...samajh jana phir :)". Suddenly the train slowed down and I walked towards the door to find out that we had reached Surat 10 minutes earlier then scheduled time. Some people were getting down at Surat, I waited behind them and some were boarding the train.

       
   Finally I got down and walked towards the door of AC coach which was just two steps ahead. Some people were getting down so I walked some more steps and again went back towards the door with the pumping heart. But the door was closed and suddenly I saw someone walking towards the mirror near the door and then she put her neck down through the window and I saw her for the first time. I went near to the door and she came on the edge of the door and said the first word "Hi..." I replied the same and was constantly looking at her glowing face at this hour. I extended my hand for an handshake and we shared the first touch. I put my hand in left pocket and got the choclairs out saying "As promised..." which I wanted to share with her and offered her in open palms...she took them with a smile and again the touch. (One of them remained in my pocket not purposely..) She asked me "Soye nai ab tak...neend nai aai" I could hardly hear anything....firstly due to the platform noise....secondly due to her low volume and thirdly because I was shocked to see how beautiful she was. I asked "Kya..." for multiple times and then replied her with a No. Then suddenly she started some blah blah in fast mode and was looking at someone at the same time inside the coach. I couldn't understand her and asked her whether I should leave, she said "Yes" and I confirmed it again with her before I started walking towards the S1 coach door. I looked behind for a last glance and then she did some gesture which made me skip my heartbeats, I was looking at her and the platform if anybody watched us and again back to her and didn't knew how to react but my blushing face had it all conveyed to her...I started walking towards my coach through the interconnection and when I reached near the berth of my parents, my mom was awake and asked me where I went....I told I got down from train for some fresh air....I wanted to get back on my berth and reach my mobile but my mom asked me to sleep in the nearby empty berth and take the luggage up on the berth as it was getting wet due to rain. I did so very fast...got my blanket from previous berth and climbed to new upper berth. 

   She had already messaged me "My god! dat was so sudden ! main nind se jaagi ti..thank u sho much :) :) :) :) mere dadaji jaag rahe te cudnt get down sry. Muje settle hone ka tym b nai mila jus so sry dadaji was seeing thru d window dats y dint get down yaar.. my heartbeats us waqt jumped" I replied to her "My god...you are more beautiful then I imagined and its Ok. You came near till door was enough for me." The next message from her was "The chox are jus very next to me...and i jus wantd u to b at ur place nai to trn chuth jati..my hand had my hair rubber band.." I replied her with Thanks for the gesture she did at last that will make my day and asked her ki "phir aa jau next station pe... ;P. I thought we will eat the chox together but koi na next time for sure." I then received her reply "Noooways luk at u..u r so gora and absolutely justify the name *that she gave me*..trust me muje ek min aur milta toh thoda hair sahi kar leti al messy.." For the first time I was asking myself Really am I that gora...or she is pulling my leg as always, how she was thinking about her hair at that time. Then the message "Aisa mat bol muje guilt hoying..i did saw dadaji sitting, peeping thru window dats y nai utri main..issue ho jata..thanx fo jhuta compli :P and again *gesture* coz dats all i cud do widout gettin down and let u knw u r special :) :) Thanx..Surat me surat jovta milyu :P" 

I replied to her "Jhuta...meri lyf me itni beautiful frnd nai bani...kasam se aur jhuta tarif toh u kiya mera, me tere saamne kuch gora nai." then there was a message "i dnt knw y i cal u mota..u r fit n fine..i may be a bit moti in frnt of u :P" (She might have thought of me being plump like the TV series character Jethalal. ;P) I replied her  "Ya a bit...bt very beautiful and adventure pura hua apna finally." Really I didn't bothered to look at her build, my eyes were glued at her innocent face and it didn't moved even for a second. She replied "Lol a bit bol raha hai..chapu kyan chhe..nai hu main moti dat top makes me appear so ok :P butterfly top..and today got them in stomach ;)" I smiled on that and thought now I know why people say Girls are always right. I replied her how chindi I was giving her just some choclairs when I could have atleast given her some cadbury...She replied "Oye mere frnd ko chindi bolne ki zarurat nai hai samjha...paglu !! imagine me toh khali hath ti fir main kya maha garib?" I replied her, No you are not garib because you gave a very precious thing and unforgettable memory with that gesture for life. She told something which happened to her while coming to door "U knw ek uncle ne almost mere muh pe gate maar dia hota.." I replied "Abhi hai kya woh uncle waha..aata hu Bharuch mein...marte hai usko" She said "Nai usko maine hi itna tuff luk dia na..he said 4 time sorry mam :P galti meri ti main bhagi door ki taraf wen train stopd ;)" Then we disussed our expereince of that moment and exchanged GN when it was actually GM and I had only a hour's journey left and she had a long way to go. She said "Will text u in mrng...C Ya"

     

   With all this adventure and memories I took rest for sometime and then got up when my destination was nearby. I was ready to get down and messaged her the same and told her "Shayad door pe dikhu tuje wavin...have a safe journey ahead..." The train stopped on the outer for about 30 mins and was late. Finally I got down with my parents and there was crowd everywhere since it was Raksha Bandhan. My Dad asked to go towards the foot over bridge on the engine side while I wanted to go towards the backside to wave Good Bye...Somehow I managed to convince him and we started walking towards the opposite direction. I asked Mom and Dad to walk ahead. I was thinking if her coach would come nearby the bridge or would I miss it but it was exactly beside the bridge and as soon as I reached near her coach I purposely dropped the luggage down and was looking towards her window. I waited for sometime but she was not there but I could see Dadji sitting and peeping outside. So I decided to walk away....Later

P.S.: This post is dedicated to this girl who gave me the wonderful memories of my life along with being a supporting partner in the adventure.
Had I known that she asked me to go because she didn't want me to miss the train, I would have atleast stand by near my door and watched her till the train starts which was only 10 minutes later after I left.